omg!
todae when i was going home frm sch.
i crossed the road near my hse.
i nearly kena knocked down by car!
i suddenly forget tat tat road is 2 way de.
den i onli see 1 way.
den suddenly i looked the other side.
there was a car coming!
den i shocked!
somemore i still stand there for abt 1 or 2 sec.
omg!
den i realise car is coming!
den i run over!
omg!
i reallie cant imagine if i reallie kena bang.
OH!
phew~
lucky i reacted it fast.
if not.
omg~
hmm.
todae sch end ard 1445.
actually wanted to go buy lu de prezzie de.
but i went to do eda tools.
so din went.
yeah~
i finished my eda tools de assignment le.
den i msg yun tat i din go buy.
den she sae tml she go buy.
hmm.
die!
i still dunno my 2047 de grp!
DIE!
DIE!
DIE!
next week project due le leh!
SHIT!
hai.
tml go ask teacher again ba.
sad.
=(
hmm.
juz now feel like having a new relationship.
but.
im reallie afraid.
hmm.
slowly ba.
mayb it juz take time.
hmm.
juz now i tink.
tat time when i first break wif des tat time.
he was wif casse not long aft.
den veri fast oso break le.
den he go wif liyun aft tat.
hmm.
den i tink is casse told mi tat he wan they 2 to replace mi.
so tat can forget mi.
but he cant.
hmm.
i was like.
-_-"
ok.
den.
2 yrs aft.
we had a chat in msn.
he wan to be wif mi again.
i dun wan in the first place.
coz.
i still hate him when i break wif him he so fast go wif they 2.
den he explained.
he sae tat he trusted 2 wrong ppl.
tats y he did tat.
hmm.
i tink i noe its who.
its.
weijie.
and.
trovine.
muz likely.
at least 99.99%.
ok.
den i reallie trusted him tat he trusted wrong ppl.
so.
i forgive him.
and.
accept him.
again.
but den.
now i tink back wat he said and wat he do.
hmm.
if trovine reallie lead him the wrong way.
den y is he so close to trovine now?
hmm.
now.
i reallie wonder his words.
izzit truth.
its like so mao dun.
other den weijie and trovine.
i cant tink of other ppl le.
coz at tat point time.
onli weijie and trovine wif him.
hmm.
hai.
since now its over le.
reallie dunno got anymore chance or not.
watever it is.
I WANA NOE THE TRUTH!!
no matter wat it is.
i can take it de.
when can i noe the truth?
is he lying mi all the while?
or he is telling mi the truth?
or im juz over sensitive?
i reallie dunno.
reallie cant figure out.
argh.
im reallie confussed.
hai.
when will my thinkings end?
hmm.
my iris liu jie noe it le.
she asked mi to be strong.
asked mi to get over it.
den i tell her.
ya.
i noe.
but.
saeing it easy.
when u reallie wana do it.
its reallie beri difficult.
hmm.
she oso sae tat i still got them.
hmm
yeah.
actually.
i can sae tat im quite fortunate le ba.
got my 6 jies be wif mi always.
no matter wat happen.
=)
yeah!
thanx man.
if i dun haf them.
hai.
reallie duuno wat will happen to my life man.
yeah~
i reallie appreciate them alot alot.
=)
love them to the core!
=p

hmm.

todae my bro de bdae.

went to buy a shirt for him.

and.

im.

BROKE!

die.

no money for lu de present le.

hai.

will find ways for tat ba.

hmm.

ok.

its the first time i buy present for my bro.

lol.

hmm.

yun send mi june bdae de photos le.

had uploaded it in my friendster le.

yeah.

nice pics.

and.

cool pics too.

and 1 scary pic wif my nyp gers.

lol.

hmm.

aft the break up.

i got lesser feelings.

but.

of coz im still sad.

im reallie regret.

and.

missing him.

but.

will he miss mi.

hmm.

i doubt so.

i reallie got no idea he reallie wana study.

or wat.

he reallie changed since he entered CHEC.

kailin sae tat whoever go there will change.

coz her ex was there too.

den.

im reallie worried abt him.

if he reallie wana study i dun mind.

but i reallie hope tat he wun go astray.

ya.

reallie hope so.

god.

plz help him.

if he did sth wrong.

plz guide him along.

i cant guide him.

coz i reallie dunno wat is he doing.

god.

plz help mi filfull my tis wish k.

i reallie hope tat he wun do anything wrong.

hmm.

when can i see him again.

hai.

wat will be my reaction when i see him?

reallie dunno.

store ppl tot im still wif him.

hai.

how am i going to tell them.

juz let them find out themselves ba.

take it naturally ba.

but.

im worried tat louise will sae anything.

coz tat time she sae tat mi and him wun be together long de.

and.

now she is correct.

so when she find out.

wat will she sae abt mi.

other things i reallie dun mind she sae abt mi.

but tis.

i reallie dunno how to react man.

hai.

louise ah louise.

plz dun torture mi tis time k.

juz tis time.

i reallie dun wana hear anything nasty frm u.

coz.

i reallie dunno wat will i react to tis.

wait i cry on the spot.

plz.

i beg u.

juz tis time k?

let mi off tis time ba.

hmm.

rumours frm my nyp gers.

tat jinlong and mi.

argh!

hate tat!

ok.

fine.

nvm.

i noe wat am i doing.

hmm.

my nyp friends noe le.

i mean the gers lah.

hmm.

ytd midnight i oso recieve regards frm my june san jie.

hmm

thanx june.

now i noe xiu and june noe le.

the rest i oso dunno they noe or not.

i tink more or less they noe le ba.

hmm.

actually todae my mood oso not tat good.

coz i was left alone in the LT juz now.

argh!

hate it to the core!!!

ok.

fine.

nvm.

i tolerate.

i muz be independent.

hai.

wat kind of life is tat man.

its reallie toturing man.

ok.

i hafta go do my tutorial le.

anything will update later.

juz came back frm work.
den online.
saw des online.
told him abt the stupid taka complaint letter.
den nth to talk le.
hmm.
den xiu msn msg mi.
den she and my other 5 jies will stand up wif mi.
yup.
i teared.
thanx xiu.
ya.
i noe u all will de.
i love u gers!
hmm.
den my work.
quite ok.
had fun.
during taking photos.
coz the kodak ppl was there nth to do.
ask us wana take photos or not.
i sae wan lah.
den mi ivy and janice drag the crews to take.
onli we 3 smile happily.
the rest is like kena force de.
haha.
den rayson so nice print us for us.
hee.
thanx ah.
=)
im now looking for ppl who has scanner.
i wana scan and post.
hee.
nice leh the photo.
i wrote names on the photo.
date too.
hope can find ppl help mi scan.
bleah.
hmm.
my xiu er jie ask mi not to think so much.
hmm.
yeah.
i will try ba k.
hmm.
tml sch at 1pm.
to 6pm.
sian.
my life back to dull again.
sch.
home.
work.
friends?
dunno.
i dun like poly friends.
=x
sorry.
i love sec sch friends.
everybody.
esp my jies.
of coz!
the rest too.
wun mi other ppl alone de.
no matter wat.
hmm.
yeah reallie missed those daes man.
wat to do now.
onli can miss.
cant go back anymore le.
btw.
i reallie real long din go back bartley le.
hai.
sorry.
i reallie no time to go back.
and.
no one jio mi go.
lol.
will fine one dae to go back de.
reallie miss all the teachers there.
and of coz the life there.
yeah and the food.
lol~
hmm.
he left without telling mi.
ok.
im juz dissapointed.
ok.
fine.
i try not to think so much.
=)
but i reallie hope tat he still treat mi as friends.
or.
at least dun hate mi can le.
if he reallie hate mi.
i will be beri depressed de.
or.
mayb i will go crazy.
but.
i reallie dunno wat is on his mind.
wat he think abt mi now.
ok.
suet.
enough le.
dun think so much!
=x
hmm.
i miss yuwei!
lol~
last fri i went to work den i called her.
we talked on the phone.
den i kena scold frm siew wah!
LOL~
haha.

hmm.

daes din update le.

first i wana sae.

we are over le.

yup.

we break le.

hai.

again.

hai.

im real sad.

i ask him.

nth can be help le mah?

den he sae mi i onli noe wana help when theres prob.

hai.

yup.

he is right.

i still wana thanx him for scolding mi tat.

den he sae forget it.

let it end ba.

hai.

sob.

my heart broke.

but.

wat to do.

he oso sae abt my attitude.

yup.

den i realise my attitude sux.

REAL SUX!

my fault lor.

din appreciate him when he is ard.

onli noe how to regret when lose him.

hai.

i regret.

REAL REGRET!

sorry.

SORRY DESMOND!

sob.

yup.

im back to single again.

all my dreams are gone.

ALL GONE!

will it be fulfilled one dae?

hai.

wonder.

i still tell him i reallie hope tat we atill haf the chance to be together again.

hai.

but.

he already see the real mi le.

he still wan meh.

hai.

i reallie reallie very regret!

ARGH!!!!!!!

i still love him alot.

actually i reallie love him alot all the while de.

juz tat i dunno how to express out onli.

hai.

reallie.

ok.

forget it.

i oso dun wana irritate him anymore le.

if i still msg him.

i reallie got no more chance de lor.

hai.

i reallie learnt a big big big lesson.

will i wait for him.

hmm.

mayb will.

but.

i will still wait.

until he get his partner.

den i will si xin.

den i will wish him all the best.

=)

hmm.

juz now went to band.

aft band june ask mi wana go her hse for bbq or not.

chong meng and ismil got go.

so i go lor.

den aft the bbq we went town.

pub.

indochaine.

yeah.

for a drink lor.

i drank vodka.

lol.

den we left at 12+am.

den i reach hm nearly 1am.

hmm.

tml or later im working at 12pm.

actually i go work oso will be sad now.

coz.

got yuan ying.

and auntie alice.

hai.

forget it.

juz treat it normal ba.

suet.

cheer up.

u are a strong ger.

rmb.

no matter wat happen.

u still got ur 6 jies wif u.

=)

hmm.

tink he din online todae.

or he din wana online again?

he was not on msn these fews daes.

or he was online.

juz tat he out "appear offline"?

hmm.

dunno.

wondering.

i sent him another msg.

tink i will send him one msg everydae ba.

hai.

i reallie envy my friends.

got bf by their side.

johan like whole dae stick to kailin.

den seline whole dae msg her bf.

diana talked to mi abt her bf.

yuwei bf called her.

hai.

mi?

got bf like dun haf lydat.

wat if one dae they ask mi.

"where is desmond?"

wat shld i reply them?

"oh he busy studying"

"no time to meet mi le"

hai.

wat an ans.

hmm.

went to sch.

end sch at 3pm.

hmm 2+ lah.

den i went to j8.

alone.

yeah alone.

hai.

went to buy some personal stuffs.

hmm.

yup.

den went off j8 ard 4pm.

went home.

was watching tv.

yuwei called mi.

ask mi wana go back store or not.

she need to see louise.

ok lor.

went wif her.

actually i wanted to watch superstar de.

den we decide to go the cafe next to our store to watch.

hmm.

ya.

den i went lor.

reached ard 830pm.

argh!

late le!

she still wana in the mgr room talk to samuel and louise.

ok lor.

den talk lor.

i missed the show.

hai.

sam met accident.

his new car.

lol.

but he is fine lah.

den we talk talk talk.

9+ den we go over to the cafe and watch.

watch a little of the superstar lor.

we went wif ivy.

she juz punch out.

den was waiting for my ma to come work.

she work at 10pm.

haha.

she reach le.

talked awhile.

customer in.

den we 3 ciao.

lol.

hmm.

yeah.

ask louise can i work on fri.

she actually sae no need de.

but ended up got put mi work lah.

6pm to 1am.

ok.

i like it.

lol.

can work le!

haha.

hmm.

i recieved my o lvl letter le.

16aug2005 oral.

9nov2005 paper 1 and 2.

hmm.

hai.

scared.

reallie scared.

reallie hope can pass this yr.

god.

plz help mi.

ok.

i will work hard.

harder den last year.

yup!

=)

sam sae he wana celebrate his bdae at mac.

lol.

mi and yuwei ask him to invite us.

lol.

haha.

mayb i will do tat for my bdae too.

haha.

lol.

can get lots lots presents le!

hee!

excited!

=p

hmm.

hai.

sad.

he did saw my msg.

but he din reply mi.

he dun bother to?

or wat?

trying to forget mi?

hai.

beats mi.

wat shld i do?

if i continue tis.

i will become crazy one dae.

reallie.

hai.

i msg him thru friendster again.

tink he will do nth again de lah.

suet ah suet.

dun tink too much lah k.

hai.

cannot lah.

he dun reply mi.

i will keep tinking de.

reallie.

hai.

in sch.

i was left alone at the eda tools de lab.

they all went off.

wat kind of friends.

i hate tat!

argh!

ok.

fine.

wo ren!

hmm.

saw casse in my sch at blk s de lift there.

hmm.

ya.

we juz.

hi.

and bye.

tats all.

lol.

shes in IT.

hmm.

ok.

will he reallie come back to mi one dae?

yup!

i trust him!

=)

i will wait.

btw.

louise still haven call mi.

hai.

tis fri no work le lah.

tink so.

its like already tue le.

hmm.

ok.

wait lor.

reallie hope she will put lor.

yeah.

im trying to make myself busy.

yup.

hai.

wat to do.

hmm.

i reallie hafta work hard in my studies le.

cant slack anymore le.

if not sure die.

so difficult sia.

ok.

i will make it de.

=)

hai.

guess wat.

i suddenly tink of my o lvl eng.

hai.

o lvl.

always spoil my relationship.

second time le.

hai.

idiot thingy.

god.

plz help mi.

plz save mi.

im struggling.

im suffering.

wo hen tong ku.

hai.

sian.

juz finished doing e-lab.

so late le sia.

hai.

i todae beri hardworking hor.

did tutorials.

study for quiz.

see.

so guai de mi.

LOL~

hmm.

ok.

back to my feelings.

i guess dar had read the testi to wrote to him.

he din accept it.

but dunno he got delete or not.

if he do tat.

i reallie will be damn sad lor.

hai.

hope not.

i will rather he do nth to it.

hope so ba.

anyway i sent him a msg thru friendster.

hmm.

dunno wat he will react to it.

will he reply?

hai.

reallie got no idea.

-wOnDeR-

hmm.

btw.

i tink i wrote the wrong dae of my crew outing.

its tuesdae.

instead of wednesdae.

hmm.

ok.

i will go print out the photo den will list all the ppl present on tat dae.

=)

hmm.

hai.

its reallie beri difficult to be happie infront of all ppl when im real sad deep in my heart.

hai.

wat to do.

i hafta do it.

when will tis end?

hai!

hmm.

went to work at 3pm.

conducted 2 parties.

i reallie envy kids.

no worries for them.

they can smile whole dae.

when bdae.

got so lots of presents.

hai.

when im a kid in the past.

get even get so much presents b4.

hai.

kids ah.

enjoy ur childhood to the fullest wor.

grow up no more tat kind of feelings liao de wor.

hai.

-eNvY-

den hor guess wat.

dee ask mi y my uniform so big.

izzit i wear the new one.

i said.

huh no lah.

same lah.

den i told her.

i slim down lah!

LOL~

den i go tell everyone tat dee sae my uniform big.

ask them izzit true.

they sae yes leh.

so i tell them i slim down le lor.

haha.

den serene ask mi izzit i sick.

i said ya lor.

last week im sick mah.

hai.
actually these few daes reallie got no appitite to eat.

eat real less these few daes.

when im working i feel real hungry.

but when i go for break.

dun feel like eating anymore le.

so i din eat lor.

juz ate yogurt and 2 drinks for the whole dae.

hai.

lydat how can wun slim.

but wat to do.

i suffered from an uncured illness le.

dun hafta slim down till when.

hai.

guess wat.

8+ 9 i was keep on looking ard my store.

looking at my hp.

but nth.

hai.

nvm.

11 le.

same.

looking ard.

looking at my hp.

hai.

still the same.

actually punch out at 2300 de.

but customer in leh.

how can go off juz lydat.

den stay lor.

i told faridah i help u clear first den i go lah.

she sae ok lor.

make it 2330 lah.

i said ok.

2330 le.

i told her i ouch out ah.

she said ok.

i go punch le.

customer in again.

i asked her.

can manage or not.

she sae can lah.

ask mi to go off better.

in case no bus.

ok lor i go off.

actually i can take ivy de cab home de ba.

she 0000 mah.

but i dun wan lah.

i wan to be alone to reflect my whole dae de feelings.

when im sad den i will do tat de lah.

guess i will do it for a long time.

hai.

so i chose to take bus.

longer time to be quiet.

stepped out store at 2345.

walked to the bus stop.

alone.

hai.

ALONE.

i hate to be alone.

yeah!

I HATE IT!

feeling so down.

and depressed ba.

feel like tearing.

but i hold back.

hai.

board the bus.

it was so damn cold.

i was like shivering almost half of my journey.

hai.

wat to do.

was hugging to myself.

and my bag.

hai.

den my leg was so pain.

muscle cramp.

toes like having blisters.

hai.

wat a dae.

i tink alot during my journey.

but.

the higher hopes i had.

the greater disppointment i will get.

its true.

but.

i reallie asked myself.

and forced myself too.

not to hope so much.

but i simply juz cant control it.

hai.

wat to do.

AGRH!

i told yuan ying.

i reallie dunno wat i wan.

work oso sian.

no work oso sian.

sch oso sian.

no sch oso sian.

wat i wan sia.

she said.

die lor.

den i told her.

ya.

go die better.

but.

if die can reallie solve ALL my problems.

i will rather go.

but.

it cant help mi in anything.

i rmb yun told mi tis.

die is a permenent solution to tempolary problems.

ya.

its true.

so when i met problems.

i seldom tink of dying.

but.

sometimes ba.

so i will rather cry for the whole dae lor.

hai.

one dae i will become dehydrated man.

i always tink tat there are so many ppl ard mi love mi so much.

if i reallie die.

its such a waste man.

i still got my future.

although i reallie dunno hows my future will be like.

i still wana see my future.

hai.

ya.

everyone will see mi happie happie everydae.

but.

they reallie dunno the inner of mi.

so sad de.

hai.

coz i dun wan them to see mi sad.

they will ask mi y y y.

dun feel like telling them.

so juz be happie infront of them lor.

behind everything.

hai.

sad story.

when can the happie cheerful suetlin will be back.

hai.

reallie dunno when.

-wOnDeR-

mayb when my illness is cured ba.

i still haven sae abt my crew outing.

last wed.

which is 14june2005.

we.

the youngster crew went for outing.

at marina south.

alot of ppl is there.

long list to be named.

when i noe i will list them all.

guess wat.

we drank beer.

yeah.

tat include mi.

hmm.

forgotten who suggested wana drink de.

den i said ok.

i wan.

den cheryl and yunrui heard tat.

but the are juz 14.

at first we said cannot lah.

they too young le.

but actually i oso underage for drinking lah.

but.

who cares.

i wanna drink.

so we ordered one jar.

actually is we share de.

but ended up serene treat.

hee.

den.

mi and yuwei share.

cheryl and yunrui share.

lijie and jefflina share.

janice and serene alone drink one glass.

hmm.

nice.

haha.

den aft tat we all went to arcade.

played so much.

reallie had fun tat dae.

den on sat.

18june2005.

hai.

no band.

whole dae free.

sian.

ALONE!

hai.

den i went bugis.

went to buy dee present.

yeah.

i went ALONE!

hai.

ok.

bought le.

den.

did sth real stupid.

ok.

fine.

dun wana talk abt tat le.

den went home aft tat lor.

hai.

sian hor.

den gave the present to dee on sun lor.

she like it wor.

hee.

quite nice lah.

its a necklace.

i share it wif yuwei.

hmm.

yuwei wun be working in mac le ba.

she found a job.

DBS bank.

hai.

will miss her lor.

mi hor.

everything i will ask her.

too rely on her le ba.

i reallie scared i cant cope without her leh.

hmm.

its time for mi to be independant le ba.

ok.

wish her all the best in her job ba.

=)

i had write in the request book tat i wana work on fri le.

WIE.

coz wana keep myself busy.

so tat.

wun tink much ba.

i guess.

but.

i dun tink so.

coz.

hai.

forget it.

nvm.

wait for louise de call ask mi to go work lor.

reallie hope tis fri can start le.

btw.

had posted a testi to.

dar?

reallie dunno wat will he react to tat.

hai.

dun tink so much le lah.

ARGH!

reallie feel like shouting out loud.

REAL LOUD!

hai.

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

hai.

im sad.

real sad.

dear asked mi to separate frm him.

for the time being.

coz he wana concentrate on his studies.

hai.

dunno how long.

dunno till when.

hai.

im lost.

i got nth.

i reallie dunno wat to do.

my heart reallie broke.

but.

reallie wonder he noes or not.

hai.

dear.

i reallie love u real lots.

im missing u all the while.

im suffering.

reallie suffer.

but no one noe.

i may look strong.

but.

im reallie weak deep in mi.

real weak.

hai.

i will wait.

wait for miracle.

i will still hope tat u will call mi once a while.

msg mi once a while.

i dun wan everything to stop till.

dunno when.

i wan it to continue going on.

will u still care for mi?

will u still love mi?

will u be by my side when im sick?

i reallie dun wan everything to stop juz like tis.

sometimes i reallie doubt the word.

"forever".

hmm.

hai.

if he juz wana end like tis.

i reallie dun haf the courage to love again.

reallie.

i took very long to accept him.

again.

yeah again.

onli 1 person noe tat its.

"again".

is yun.

she noes tat.

she asked mi.

"ur ex oso named desmond right?"

i struggled.

i replied her.

its the same person.

shes shocked.

yupp.

hai.

wat shall i do now?

i reallie got no idea.

dear plz dun leave mi.

hmm.

its all my silly and stupid thinkings.

im sorry dear.

REALLIE SORRY DEAR!

i stop it le.

yes i had already stop it few daes ago.

but.

im still waiting.

i will wait de.

yeah!

15 june 2005.

is my happiest dae!

coz.

FULL ATTENDANCE!

yippie!

its june san jie de bdae celebration.

was at cartel j8.

i reallie love it man!

all my jies were there.

liyun da jie.

yuxiu er jie.

june san jie.

luvina si jie.

jing shan wu jie.

iris liu jie.

suet lin xiao mei.

tats mi!

LOL~

=D

LOVE THEM TO THE MAX!!!

sandy and shinyi was there celebrating wif june too.

we all was crapping.

mi and iris was keep on tou zui.

haha.

miss tat lots.

was doing tat always during secondary school.

and we all was talking and laughing loudly.

we are the noisiest grp among there ba.

i suppose.

haha.

the meal was reallie nice.

reallie thanx to june.

=)

den we all was keep on taking photos.

we qi jie mei.

of coz will take de lah.

and oso wif shinyi and sandy.

and oso individually wif june.

deb aft tat xiu hafta go off first coz she having sch at 8am the next dae.

den shan went off.

den we stayed awhile more.

den we go off.

june, lu, sandy and shinyi went interchange took bus 53.

yun was fetched by her bf.

hmm.

mi leh.

took bus 13 wif iris.

hmm.

i talked to her.

she given some advice.

yeah i will tink abt it.

but.

im still sad at tat time.

was looking up in the sky.

coz dun wana let u see im tearing.

sob.

im sorry.

but im ok now.

=)

reached home 10+ ba.

den online 11+.

den dear called mi 1235am.

im shocked.

im happy.

real happy.

happy till cant talk properly.

LOL~

talked to him ard 1/2 hr.

he sound tired.

mi quite.

end conversation.

went to slp.

b4 i slp im still beri happie tat he called mi.

=p

keep thinking abt tat.

the next dae.

having lesson at 1pm.

coz no cost accounting.

die.

haven do eda tools.

shit.

hmm.

dun care lah.

=x

lesson end at 9+pm.

hmm.

sad.

but.

its ok.

used to it can le.

called him twice.

no ans.

he called back much later.

told mi he was playing bball.

ok.

den online.

he is still playing his game.

-_-"

ok.

tml no sch.

still hafta wake up early.

sian.

den afternoon going to sim lim.

was thinking.

but.

nvm.

its ok.

hmm.

i reallie dun like the feeling of going home at night alone le.

or.

im too rely on him.

ok.

soon.

get used to it le.

hai.

mc.

hafta whole dae stay at home.

scared louise will call and check.

=X

will kena violation letter if i go out.

so bo bian.

stay at home lor.

prevent any trouble.

hai.

tis morning.

same.

was waiting for my dar de msg or call.

but i din get any.

im sad.

im disappointed.

i see the clock.

12pm le.

he is working le.

still din msg mi or call mi.

hai.

forget it.

den juz now 2+pm ba.

i called him.

i asked him he working ar?

he said ya working u call mi for wat?

ok.

fine.

i end the conversation.

sob.

y everything is different from the beginning?

everything had changed.

y is he lydat now?

last time he will call mi or at least msg mi when he wake up.

but now?

nope.

nth from him.

he asked mi not to anyhow think.

but wat he did.

how can i dun think.

im reallie scared.

hai.

sob.

whatever it is.

i noe my 6 jies wll always be wif mi.

i need not to be scared.

=)

hai im sick~

feel beri terrible lor...

tis morning wake up beri headache...

head feel like bursting anytime sia...

den ytd im coughing and sneezing almost the whole dae...

den tis morning went to see doctor lor...

den went to buy lunch home...

ate le den took my medicine den auto fell asleep...

lol~

den slept the whole dae lor...

den juz now ate my dinner...

took my medicine le...

i oso din went to band...

cham...

2 prac din go le

=X

hai tis morning dar oso din msg mi...

made mi hafta msg him...

when i msg him...

he sae he abt to wake up onli...

hai i was tinking i sick he still can slp till so late ar...

hai ok lor...

den in the afternoon when i was resting dar called mi!

i was so HAPPIE!!!

bleah!

=p

den juz now night i called him...

he still playing wif his game...

he had been playing for daes...

or weeks ba...

reallie dunno wat so nice abt tat man

-_-"

haha...

den now in msn i chat wif him he oso din reply mi!!

HAI!!!

tml i mc...

no need to go work...

lucky got 2 parties onli...

yuwei will conduct lor...

dee take leave...

her bdae wor...

hmm...

hmm ytd went to auntie lilian de hse...

go see ah bee jie de baby boy...

12 daes onli...

dun dare to carry...

LOL~!

i miss my darling badly...

how i wish he can be by my side now...

im sick...

hai...

hai sian lor todae... but later going to auntie lilian de hse ba i tink -WiNk-

SIAN~

hmm dunno y now de him and last time de him is like different le leh... is i still dun understand as much or he had changed... hai reallie make mi wonder lor...

k lah tats all for now... later at night den update ba~

todae lesson at 1010am... den reach sch ard 10am lydat... den go straight to the LT lor... hai... im a loner... LOL~ den towards the end of the lecture i hafta choose my group le!!! the thing tat i fear most!!! hai... den i kena wif dunno who... hai sad!!! den i ask wang dan faster come join mi if not i will reallie be a LONER!!! lucky next week dun haf tis lesson... lol~

den aft tat lecture is my 4hr BREAK!!! reallie dunno wat to do man... meet kailin and diana aft my lecture... den wang dan sae she wana go home first later den come back... den we all keep tinking where to go and wat to do... but think of NONE!!! hai SIAN!!! den we went to audi to see see look look... but still the same old things as last time de... den we went to the club crawl... went in walk one round... den met wang dan inside... den she told us she decide not to go home le... den we left the club crawl... den we all complaining hungry le... den we go buy lunch den go to tutorial room and eat... den aft we eat le den i play dai dee wif kailin and johan... haha... den diana and wang dan slp sia... haha! den we only can stay at tat tutorial till 3pm onli... den 3pm we went outside LTN and rot lor... LOL~ wang dan slp again! =D den finally 4pm le... den we went to our lecture lor... den aft tat 2hrs de lecture... BREAK AGAIN!!! wah im sick and tired of BREAK man... if every week lydat i will be crazy man... its a waste of time lor... so many breaks... den 640pm we went to our night class... sian lor oso dunno wth he talking abt... den mi and kailin keep entertaining ourselves... dunno wat we are talking abt le den we keep on laughing and laughing during the lesson... haha! den we oso keep talking abt the superstar... den laugh lor... haha LOL~ den diana sae we beri noisy =X ok our *nonsence(dunno how to spell =p) over le... back to proper... we did our lab... finish le den hand in den CIAO~ oOo happie sia... end of dae den fridae no need to go sch haha...

den went to meet my dar... he already waiting for mi at yck station le... den in the afternoon was missing my dar le... but he still haven call mi... i bth le... i called him... he sae he juz wake up... ask him wat he doing... he was watching tv and playing com... hai den din call mi... HAI!!! last time he juz wake up will oso call mi de lor... hai nvm... aft i end the conversation wif him he msg mi... asking y i sound so sad? den i told him i feeling tat "IT" becoming lesser and lesser le leh... he sae dun haf... so i told mayb im too sensative ba... hope tat im wrong... he replied definately wrong! ok lor i will gif him time to prove it de... hai dun sae i tink too much lah... is i reallie feel it lor... if i din feel it i tink for wat... nth better to do meh! hai reallie hope tat history wun happen! wun happen de... wun de... HISTORY WUN HAPPEN AGAIN DE!!!

dar i reallie love u... REALLIE... wif my TRUE HEART ("v")

sian tml no sch... not going anywhere... stay at home and ROT ba... dun ask y i din go out wif my dar... onli i will understand de =)

i still can rmb once kailin said tis "we hor... got sch sae sian... no sch oso sae sian... reallie dunno wat we wan man!" LOL~

todae lesson at 1010am... reach sch ard 10am ba... todae its all lecture sia... all reallie dun understand wat the hell the lecturer talking abt man... accept the maths lor... hai tis semester de moudules all beri chim sia... hai headache~ all is like computer computer computer stuffs de... ya of coz lah... its my course mah... electronics, COMPUTER and communication engeneering... hai wat to do... its my course...

den my lecture end at 3pm... den the whole morning and afternoon i was like waiting for my dar de msg... tot wat happen den i oso din call him or msg him =p den like 2 le... i tot he is on his way come to meet mi le... den recieve his msg... he juz wake up!!! wah 2pm leh!!! slp till so late... haha... den i sae i wana go change my hp de plan so i meet him at parkway lor... ard 4pm den he reach le... den go to m1 shop lor... but ended up oso din change coz dar sae upgrade my plan wif new hp more wu hua... so din change lor... wait till got money buy hp le den change ba haha... den aft tat go makan den walk walk ard... rot awhile ard there den go home lor... den when i reach home awhile den dar call mi... sae tat i miss "nice show" near my house... LOL~

den aft my dinner(wah todae i eat damn lot lor!!! =X) watch tv lor... the jue dui superstar beri nice sia... beri funnie oso... haha =D but tml cant watch... hai tml end lesson at 930pm!!! SIAN AH!!! i miss alot of my show man... yin cha yang cuo... -sAd- den tml start sch at 1010am... its the accounting de lect... i dun like it... im all alone again... the rest of the gers not wif mi... hai... den hafta do project... dunno group wif who!!! HAI!!! wang dan sae she going to change and come to my this module coz she dun like japanese... hai hope she can come join mi asap den project can group wif her... but tis module got 2 lect grp... hopefully she wun go there =) den hor tml got 4hrs de break!!! 12pm to 4pm!!! hai dunno wat to do man... we still cannot tink of any idea yet... sian~ wat a time table...

gotta slp le~

ciaoz~